Am I losing the connection

These past few weeks, okay at least a month, I have been living in my own little world again. I have found that when I am focused on one thing I forget about the world around me. I have been focusing so much on my marriage that I am forgetting about those close to me. Well I am not forgetting about them I am forgetting to be there for them. I have no idea how to manage my time so I can be around for everyone that needs me. If I focus on home I slack at work and with friends, if I focus on work then I slack at home and with friends, same with friends. I don't know why I can only deal with only thing at a time. My mind can be all over the place but if I don't do one thing at a time then I pretty much don't do anything at all.

So how do I fix this? For that matter how do I fix it before it is too late. I do not want to lose my family, I do not want to lose my friends, and well, I probably do want to lose my job but at the moment I can not lose that. How do I manage to keep up with all of them and not go crazy while trying to do so. None them make me crazy, it is just my brain working and trying to remember everything that makes me crazy. I don't want anyone to feel like I am ignoring them. I do want them to know that when my mind gets like this I lose the ability to say what I want too, because my mind wanders so much I can never get it out right.

hmmm, is this the real reason I lost Jodi as a friend? While she was going through her shit I was going through my issues with Kirk. Was I ignoring her and not realizing it? Maybe I was so focused on myself that I just didn't listen to her when she needed me. well after writing that down it makes me look really selfish. Maybe I am, I don't want to be like that though, I want to be there for my friends as much as they are there for me. At the same time I am afraid if I focus on only them it will cost me something else that is important to me. How the heck do I do this???????????