Why do I need recognition

I don't understand why I need to be noticed, mainly when it is good.
Just over a week ago my boss(Mark) said there was going to be a management meeting between him, the assistant(Janet) and the two shift runners(Sumner and myself). He said he wanted to discuss how things are currently being run and how to change what needed to be changed and how to improve business. He wanted us to write down outlines and subjects to cover and what we think can be done to improve sales. When he said he wanted input from us I start taking notes and jotting ideas down. I covered everything from manangement setting a better example, being more involved with communication with each other and with other employees. I came up with a few ideas, some of it came from Kirk and then I altered what he said and made it better fit the current. I came up with ideas for marketing not just the idea of more marketing but I came up with suggestions for specific flyers. I came up with ideas for improving drivers attitudes and ways on how to get the motivated to want to be better.

So by Saturday the Janet and Sumner brought up their list, they said to each other "want to know how much I have done, or written down? nothing" and here I was saying almost four pages. So today comes along and the Janet didn't have anything written down and Sumner has one page of notes that she wrote this morning before she came into work and here I am with six pages written out. Left to wonder if I did more than asked of or am I an ass kisser.

So the Mark gives us a basic outline of what subjects we are going to touch base on, we all give our input. I have written down something on almost all of these subjects, missed one of them, but still had some input. We tended to go a little off subject or elaborate on one thing more then needed to be but overall we covered the outline. I was sitting there flipping through pages so I could point out anything I had written on the subject and trying to add a little further to it. When the meeting was basiically over Mark did give me the extra time to listen to my ideas. I threw them out and he said yes that can work, no that can not work and here is why, blah, blah....which left me actually asking him were my ideas any good, is this what you asked for, and making him recognizing the work I had done. I mean did he even notice...
I also myself answering questions that came from Janet and Sumner for him, at one point I opoligized because I caught myself doing it and he said it was fine that we were for input and it helps to know who knows what.
One of my ideas was to target specific street or sectors with the flyers that had really great deals valid for one week only on them and they would only be good for one week. janet wanted to make each sector to have different specials and I impatiently let her finish what she was saying and then threw out this is why that idea won't work, it would be more cost effective to print out the same flyers(can print a thousand for less money than a hundred and pay more) and leave the expiration dates open to filled out manually, that way if there are any extra they won't need to be thrown out, they are open to be used anytime. After I said I wondered if I was right and Mark did confirm that, so hey I was right again and loving it.LOL
My other idea also had to do with the flyers but different ones and have the drivers have a competition based on these flyers. That was almost a good idea. Mark said he did like it and may use it when he owns his own store but his sources are limited now. Turns out the owner is all for keeping management happy but that is far as it goes, guess he sees it as the managers are happy and required to keep everyone else that way. However without proper incentives I don't see it happening. Mark had said he was going to start doing evaluations on everyone, usually when you think of evaluation you think raise, but drivers don't get raises so I said we should have employee of the month and if you get it that month you get something. So we are working on the something but he liked that idea.

So now the meeting is over and I am left to wonder if Janet and Sumner were upset with me, did I overstep them? Were they mad because I had more idea and they were more elaborate ideas then they did? Was what I was doing really team work or was it me showing off that I think I know more than them. I don't think I know more than them but I do have a habit of letting them know if something is wrong or not "the standard" way and why it is like that.

Then I wonder did this make Mark think more of me. Or do I talk to much and ask too many questions. I am constantly asking him questions about how stuff gets done and why it is done that way. Either because I just want to know or because I have an idea and I need the information before I can move forward with an idea, mostly just because I want to know everything.lol
Overall I wonder why I put so much time into it, I always tell him I do not want to be a manager. I just don't have the time that is needed for real management, yet if I don't care or don't want it why did I give it so much thought. It then makes me question why I don't want it, I really could figure out a way to do it, I really could be more available and it not really hurt my family. I had it stuck in my head that I wanted to be a stay at home mom for so long. Does it fall back on why I am always quitting things? I am always afraid of failure and quit before it can ever get to that point. Am I also afraid of success? Or is it just that if I succees it will most likely lead to me failing at something and ultimately it would just be better to avoid it all together.