more on life and weight

Well here I am not having to go to work and almost loving it but not yet. It feels like a short week and like I am going to have to go in over the weekend so maybe next week will be better. I have been clearing out the porch little by little, well actually a lot but there is/was that much stuff out there so it just looks a little more dented each day. Next Wednesday we have to go to my brothers to get the big sectional couch they are giving us. It is going to be wierd having it in the house, it used to be my mom's couch, in fact I helped her pick it out and pay for it since I was living with her at the time. It will be nice though it has like five or six pieces to it, so my husband and the kids will actually be able to sit on the couch instead the floor, hardwoods aren't exactly comfortable to sit on for a long time. Since our couch hasn't completely fallen apart we are going to put it on the porch and a table and make a nice little place to hang out. I think some of the kids toys are going to go out there too. I want to get a better door and windows before I put anything of value out there, just too easy to break into at the moment so I don't want to worry about anything out there.

So my one brother is moving to Florida in one week. He will be about two to three hours away from my mom and somehow I bet they will still hardly see her. I think when they are driving down there they are going to stay with her one night(I am so jealous).I am happy for him for taking that chance and moving and sad as my family breaks up little more.

Now news on my other brother, he has made a career change which is a little shocking but given his home life at the moment understandable. Instead of franchising his own pizza place he is buying a potato chip distribution. He will have to work seven days a week and deliver to local stores and such, but it will mean he is home every night by 6pm. His wife loves that idea as she can not stand him working nights. That is a whole nother issue with them and kind of sad. He will also be home for his son who is sixteen now and is getting himself into some trouble so dad being home will be good for him(I hope).
He is going to reccomend my sister to be the manager of the store, guess I got out of there at the right time.lol, just kidding. She is not sure if she wants to do that though. Actually I think she does want it she does not have the confidence in herself to do it. Plus she still needs to work on her people skills. She also just started a part time job because she wasn't getting enough at the pizza place. If she were to pick one I personally think she go with the pizza one, at least that job goes somewhere and the management skills she will learn will be good for her resume in the future, but knwing her she will pick the minimum wage job that barely gives raises(she worked for this person before) just because she does not have enough faith in herself. I would do the management job but it is unlikely they can pay enough between having to work fifty to sixty hours or more if needed and having to pay sitters, I would never see my family.
Hmmm what else, oh my older sister started working with us at the pizza shop, she is a driver. my brother can now say at one time or another he had his whole family, including his parents, working for him at dominos at one time or another.lol

Well there is part of life stuff now the weight, first thing, notice how this wasn't the most important thing on my list as it is last. Well I am not sure who to talk to at the moment. I need help but not sure where to ask for it, only because I have asked so many times just to revert back to my old ways. I feel like a failure and when I get like this I don't want to talk to anyone because somehow I feel like I will bring them down with me. I don't like to do that so I tend avoid everyone and everything.